In 2015 I decided to go on what I thought was going to be a two week Hiatus, but boy was I in for an unplanned but much needed Awakening, that would change me and transform my life. Without any announcement or calling of attention to what I was doing, I just faded into the vapors of Life's uncertainties and stood still on the magic carpet of hope and faith and allowed IT to carry me to The Cocoon awaiting me. Before I knew it two weeks had turned into five weeks and then five weeks turned into almost four years. Before I knew it, I was completely unplugged and kind off the grid... This was difficult and scary at times because it was completely different than my plugged in and socially connected life.
My life before becoming unplugged was filled with busy schedules, a lot of traveling, speaking engagements, training, marathons, events, tons of strategy sessions, long days, mothering and so on. Boy was my cape heavy and plate full to max! For a time I believed that there was nothing that I could have gone through in my past that would have prepared me for what I would go through, but I learned that "nothing you ever go through will ever be wasted." YMC. It was through this experience that I became more aware and connected to my spiritual self which allowed me to tap on my humanity in its most authentic form. I recognized and found peace with all of who I was... I hurt, I bleed, I cry, I get angry, I have flaws and I am human...but not only human. I am a woman with a vision on a mission to make a difference within herself first and then the world.
I had no idea that I was about to face the hardest most traumatic experiences I have in my life. Now as I look back over what I affectionately call the "Category 7" of my life, I smile with tears in my eyes. To be honest although I had hope and faith when my storms started raging...it wasn't until I laid face down in my personal valley that I was introduced to sanguinity and fierce faith in the depth of the soul that I once believed was breaking. I made a commitment to myself that once I was able to write again, type again, see clear enough and be well enough to speak again...that I would live a full and colorful life. Dying on E sounded good in theory, but LIVING a FULL life and Dying on E was what I was going to do.
I vowed to move forward and share my stories and experiences with others while finding peace and hope in the belly of my own new found joy. I knew in my soul that I was not here for just myself but to empower, encourage and inspire others to LIVE. The revelation didn't come without a mission, one of which forces me to leap far beyond my comfort zone and do some things that I've never done before.
While away and suffering the debilitating affects of having Systemic Lupus, Fibromyalgia and Steroid Induced Diabetes, I decided to start vlogging to share my story and pieces of my life during that time until I no longer could. It was my intention for the videos to be raw and to capture me in my most vulnerable state while going through the Vicissitudes of life. My prayer is that what I shared would be a blessing in some way as I welcome you behind the scenes in the stages of my life.